Last post

This is my 100th post and also the last one.

But to compensate, I made a new blog!

(It will take some time to re-format my new blog. In fact it will take eons. Sigh...)

Oxford Interview: Part 2

I have a feeling this will be my last post on this blog. :(

It's quite a while since my Oxford interview, and I thought it went comforably well.

I was 2 hours early. Was acting confident but was really nervous inside. Drank a lot of water, went to the toilet a dozen of times. Finally, I couldn't take it any longer, and went to the nearest shopping mall and walked around. Time passed amazingly slowly for some reason. Finally, I went back to the interview place, and once more in the toilet before I went in the room... (suspense!)

December 15th!!!! Will be when Oxford will tell me whether I got rejected or offered a place (usually with conditions of AAA grades).

Ah! So my gut feeling is that I got accepted, but then again, my gut feeling is also that I got rejected.

(On a more positive thought, I already got an offer from Imperial, my second choice.)

So... again, I think this will be my last post.

I want to start a new blog. I want a new start. I will tell you the new blog's link here. (Laughing to myself, who's the audience anyways?)

Oxford Interview: Part 1

I don't feel scared or nervous.

But I don't feel good about it though. I feel unprepared, am sick from flu, and so vulnerable.

Since I believe that luck = preparation + opportunity,

I've certainly got most of the opportunity bit, but not so sure about the preparation.

Have I got what it takes to be an Oxford student?

I think so - I am hard-working, I am smart. I aim for the best.

But still depends on my competition.

Acyl chlorides and paracetamol, nucleophilic substitution and elimination, pyridine and tertiary amines...

Can I take it all in?

I doubt it, so can I work things out from scratch.

Maybe, but I need lots of time.

But the interview only lasts 30 minutes or so.

Can I show the best of me in half an hour?

No, but the tips I got are:

Do not show any of you weaknesses, but don't act arrogant,

Do ask questions, but do not ask silly ones,

Do show respect, at the same time self-confidence,

Answer slowly, but logically.

If you don't understand, don't just stutter an answer,

Ask, ask, and ask.

Remain calm, and make this an invaluable experience,

It's more like a discussion than a Q&A session.

So, in conclusion, there's nothing to worry about,

The worst thing that can happen is you don't get in

Which doesn't change who you are - so phew!

Dream logs

Part 1

One day, I came back home to realise I have more siblings that I thought. I thought Matthew was more than enough to annoy me, but no, we had three (!?!?) in between us. I was the oldest, and Matthew, who I knew since he was born, was the youngest.

The scary thing is that they lived in our house without being noticed all these years.

Anyways, we decided to play tennis. The court was on the roof a very tall building and so we climbed a long way of spiral staircase. Suddenly, black clouds, really black clouds formed, which kept sinking to our level as we tried to escape back to the ground floor.

Part 2

When I went to my room, there were three classmates sleeping on my bed. They were listening to my music. Thankfully, it's music I don't mind people knowing I listen to. While they were relaxing on my bed, I was cleaning my room. There were lots of tissues on the floor...

Then we played pool in my living room. We just used the dining table.

Then one of my classmates said she missed the times when she and I played badminton, that we should play more.

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Uh weird and confusing dreams!

Stress and stress no more

I think I'm so stressed, to the point I'm scared that I might become crazy. My bubble is shrinking instead of bursting.

Damn,
Damn,
Damn,
Damn,

Damn.

I lost the sense of my direction because I have too many directions from other people.

I'm stressed because I always think about what other people might say. People think I think too much about myself, but the fact is I didn't even have a millisecond to think about myself.

Well, that's going to change.

Big time.

Like a supernova.