I hate change!

I like structure. I hate changes, uncertainty, surprises. In fact, I'm afraid of change.

Structure gives me security. My home gives me security. My room gives me security. I feel safe, comfortable here. Not at school, shopping malls, restaurants, not even Disneyland.

Is this weird?

Perhaps that's why I chose science instead of English. Geography instead of history. At least the changes are structured.

When change occurs, I try to hide from it.

Seriously, I think I hit the rock-bottom of my life, when I should be having the time of my life.

I am hoping living in a new place would improve my situation. It couldn't get any worse than this.